Jewels

I started writing this about 3 years ago and I changed the direction of it about three times. I havent wrote in about 2 years now. A friend of mine just reminded me and it just hit me that I have abandoned my "Baby" lol I've birth Jewels and kinda just left her hanging. Anyhow this is completely fiction and even at 16 years old I wanted to write a book that would touch the souls of young girls and boys all over the world. I pray to God that before this is all over that he guides me to complete Jewels and make this thing happen! So here it is (Please excuse the grammar errors a hot mess I know lol but I don't feel like going over and fixing I just copied and paste from my flash drive). Hope you all enjoy.

 Jewels

Chapter 1: Jewel
What do you think about at night, when you close your eyes what do you see, what do you feel all at once when darkness fall? Do you have a song to sang because when you lay and close your eyes you know that there is someone who loves you? That's what you feel all at once when your love one comforts you repeating that everything will soon be ok? To bad that doesn't happen for all of us, instead of feeling love having hate running through my body embarrassed with what I see. Never knowing what it's like to be loved how could you not hate everything and everybody who crosses your path? My mother didn't care for anything but her favorite white substance , and other then abusing us physically and emotionally nothing stopped her from getting to her pipe. My father, never knew him and sometimes I wish that he would come look for me and save me from this harsh cruel life of mine. You know like those father on the T.V show's ? At night having thoughts about where the next meal will come from, how will i feed my 2 brothers and 5 sisters. When I close my eyes I see the man who was on top of me hours ago releasing himself inside of me, while i lay there and think about what i'll do with the money I will recieve after this daily routine is over. Sometimes I feel i'll be better off dead then alive, but enough of my complaining my next customer has arrived. Dont you dare judge me I have mouths to feed who else going to do it if I don't?



Jewel a precious stone regarded with special affection, a person who is brilliant and precious. It's funny that's the meaning of my name if having different type of men all ages on top of my 14 year old body fulfilling their own sick disieres I don't want to be handle with special affection. If brilliant means being in the 8th grade reading at a 5th grade level , then that will be me but I'm smart enough to know that it doesn't. My mother couldn't do anything right she could have at least picked a name to fit a bastard child like me. I have seen and done a lot of things at my age so i always consider myself grown. Who could tell me different until they have walked a day in my shoe's then they could label me.


Chapter 2

"CHASE"

STOP ! NO! Help ! As i sit here chanting these words over and over in my head while silenting praying that the torture I keep hearing outside my bedroom door just stop. The day my mother met Dre she lost focus. Not only in her dreams but In Journey and I, before him she made sure she came to every game I had and every dance recital for Journey and months into meeting Dre the mom we once knew, was lost. I remember when my sister Journey was first born she use to always enforce the we are all we got so it'll always be "do or die" and when it came to my sister and her "DO OR DIE" it was. Our father past when I was 8 and shortly after Journey was born due to tragic car crash instantly killing him on the spot. Life was perfect when dad was alive him and my mom always made time and showed us a lot of love unlike most of my friends parents due to their mom being a single parent and always working to put food on the table and keep a roof over their heads. Now a few years later my sister and I are in the same boat as them. Tonight I made up my mind that it was going to be final night, I could no longer tolerate hearing the ass beatings of my lovely mother, the fear in my sisters eye's , and the hatred growing in my heart. At this moment I vow to not ever put my kids in this type of situation , and most of all put my hands on my wife. I'm getting Journey and I out of this hell hole soon, real soon I would kill for my sister remembering we all we got tonight I decided it's truly "DO OR DIE"